disadvantages of not telling

one problem with not telling anyone is that i sort of have to hide my symptoms. This is particularly hard at work. I get in (well i should get in) at 7 am and i am feeling very bleck. I work up to normal around noon go and eat lunch and usually by the time i get back from lunch the urge to nap is almost overwhelming. This is quite different from the post lunch sleepies that i usually get. This is like a force dragging at my eyelids and head to just collapse. i read some pregnancy advice thing that said something like tell your boss that you are pregnant so that you can get some short rests in the afternoon. Two problems with this plan are that 1 i am not telling my boss and 2 even if i did there is no time for a short rest int eh afternoon. I get off at 330 pm. So it wouldn't work anyway. The other hard bit is that frequently if in the lab we are making progress on something important i cant quite convince myself to abandon everyone else to work so i can go get food. If they eat later i will eat later. . . that sort of thing. It is hard to reconcile with trying to eat 6 meals a day or with drinking more.

On the one hand i don't want to ask for extra slack because obviously i can work the way i am working. On the other hand it is taking a fair bit more out of me that it was a few months ago. I think if i just keep my head down i should be able to push through it. I know i need to work on taking more food/drink breaks.

I have received my new insurance card so Monday i will call the Obstetricians office and get my appointment changed from a consult to a . . . (first visit?) something. eeek nervous.
The first time we went in there to make an appointment the receptionist said what are you here for.
i said to make an adornment
she said with whom
i said an obstetrician?
she said well i know that honey

lol

embarrassed

i don't really know what she was asking even now
deary
i am feeling better all around
more queasy less nauseous
yay